I'm pretty surprised that it's been 6 months since I last blogged. Christmas and the run up was pretty hectic but still that's half a year without a blog. Work took over for a little while and I was pretty miserable. Christmas was a stark reminder of all the things I do not have in my life. Not as most would say a time to reflect and be grateful for what I do have. I have a home. It's a single room in a house I share with my ex-boyfriend. Not so jolly. I have an elderly parent who I visit regularly and feel guilty about, and worry almost every second of the day. My closest friends have moved on with their lives and have bigger issues than me, I love them dearly but regularly wish it was the good old days when it was just us, no babies or mortgages or grown up shit. I am turning into a lost girl from Peter Pan, not only do I not want to grow up but I want to play forever.....
The New Year was more inspirational. I watched fireworks on the telly then in the garden. All around there were fireworks it was strange. The air was full of smoke and fog and gunpowder, cold and fresh to herald the new year and new possibilities. I decided to take some control and go do activities. It sucks being alone all the time but if I wait for someone to take me anywhere i'm just going to die having never done anything. Feeling sorry for myself but in a positive way. So when my holiday came round instead of doing all the chores I trawled the internet for things to do. The first thing I found was 'A Christmas Carol' with Jim Broadbent, (who is a super mega star hero person). It was the last performance that day so I jumped on a train and headed to the big city. I spent most of the day worrying that I was underdressed for the theatre, but it turns out people wear anything! ( a lot of them are also Dicks.) Jim Broadbent was an absolute legend. after a pretty amazing show with flying puppets and singing and fun, I got to meet him at the stage door. I didn't even realise this was something people did, stalking stars after shows but there were loads of people waiting, I'm glad I did because I got to tell the man to his face how awesome I think he is!!!! Happy days :)
The New Year was more inspirational. I watched fireworks on the telly then in the garden. All around there were fireworks it was strange. The air was full of smoke and fog and gunpowder, cold and fresh to herald the new year and new possibilities. I decided to take some control and go do activities. It sucks being alone all the time but if I wait for someone to take me anywhere i'm just going to die having never done anything. Feeling sorry for myself but in a positive way. So when my holiday came round instead of doing all the chores I trawled the internet for things to do. The first thing I found was 'A Christmas Carol' with Jim Broadbent, (who is a super mega star hero person). It was the last performance that day so I jumped on a train and headed to the big city. I spent most of the day worrying that I was underdressed for the theatre, but it turns out people wear anything! ( a lot of them are also Dicks.) Jim Broadbent was an absolute legend. after a pretty amazing show with flying puppets and singing and fun, I got to meet him at the stage door. I didn't even realise this was something people did, stalking stars after shows but there were loads of people waiting, I'm glad I did because I got to tell the man to his face how awesome I think he is!!!! Happy days :)